Beauty

Beautiful,

I never thought of myself as pretty I was just a person not anyone special. When I was younger I heard ” your such a cute kid ” but what did that mean ? . The first time I felt attractive i was in a tight dress high heels (pumps were a thing in the 80’s) and makeup!! Ahh yes makeup the wonderful product that covers the uncomfortable feeling of meeting new people. When I met my husband I was 21 and I fell in love , he was very real and honest . He again said I was Beautiful and he spent so much time with me . Around 7-8 years ago I kinda felt like I had evolved into a totally new and different person . I’m not sure what happened but I started to feel the need to change who I was . My kids were older and now I needed to spend all my time with this man that I married so long ago . I think we were on our way to San Diego and I glanced at him driving and I thought ” damn how did I get so lucky , how did I gain so much in this wonderful man “. I then looked in the mirror and thought ugh I’m FAT!”

Walking!! Omg I hated doing it , STAIRS!! Noooo that was unheard of !! I was happy with all my layers all my plump and all my food !! Then it happened I ended up in the Hospital with a collapsed lung , pneumonia and a staph infection. The Dr told my husband the next three days were critical and if they didn’t get a high amount of antibiotics in me ASAP I may not make it . Then I heard the death sentence ” DIABETES ” I thought my life was completely over I mean what was left ?? I have no will power I have no way of finding that much strength to fight my way back . Fast forward to 2 years later I did lift myself back up thru the grace of God . But slid hard back to my habits. I made a mistake I gave in to my surroundings to temptation. I didn’t use the positive around me and work harder for it . Your biggest supporter is yourself no one has a magic pill no one has the great plan ! Only you can dig deep in your soul and tell yourself ” I CAN! I WILL! “. We are stronger than we realize , every time we sit at a table with food we have the ability to chose well . Pressure , people put a lot of pressure on us all the time . Picture yourself at a table with friends and they order some fantastic food but you want to fit in , you want to be like everyone else. Your brain is telling you YES!! I’ll take the chili burger with extra cheese and omg the fries !! Now flip that , yes I’ll take a burger with no bun please and an ice tea with a side salad and vinaigrette. There is nothing wrong with altering your plate !!! It’s ok this isn’t high school no pressure here!! This is your life, this is you surviving for your spouse , for your kids ! . There are a lot of great ideas out there I did and do Herbalife and KetoDiet but I do order smart . These two plans have educated me !! Listen folks educate yourself that is so important so that your brain will help you cope with bad choices. Beauty is what you feel , Healthy is what you become !!!